>>3258
Alright, then.

>>3258
That's not all right at all. At least talk to someone about it.

>Doujin Work update

>>3260
Er, um, I-I will.. th, thank you.

jyouji send me board.php, ne

>>3267
Uploaded at last, I see.

I-if anyone is interested in some multiplayer Civ tonight, I'd be happy to game.

>>3270
I'm all yours in three weeks.

>>3270
Tsun.

>>3270
>>3271
>>3272
>Faster speed
>All yours
>Tsun

I feel so horrible......

Imagine.....the /seacats/ board

now Imagine Yourself with the users you have a good relationship...
Now, change their personalities....WITH My personality (Spam lover)

Now lets suppose you are ....a temporal moderator(or George-kun if you want to)......and you have to ban and punish all of them .......You actually do it , but you feel so horrible and bad for banning them......
It is like if Astaroth had to ban Lily-san...

Naturally that users are your friends (like here on seacats)
But since the rules say so you have to do it...
and obviously they clearly broke a rule....

the fact is : I don want to be the one that wields the Ban hammer......that why i decided to quit being a moderator on that community...

am i wrong?
It is okay to not feel guilty?
am i a corrupt person..for having my emotions burst instead of thinking?

>>3273
>F
>A
>T

>>3274
wat

>>3275
All right, I'll host. I was just playing a test game to get some screenshots for that other thread.

And agreed, faster speed.

>>3276
>I am a moderator in another community
>I had to ban some people
>That people are close friends of mine
>They clearly broke the rules...
>I feel guilty about banning them
>I consider myself not worthy of being a moderator for having that thoughts
>Decided to quit

>>3279

>>3278
I see.

Now the question is....

Should I deal with it or move over....

or I should felt guilt.....

moe

>>3282
You're probably the only one who can judge that.

>>3274
I'm probably the wrong person to comment on such a thing, but since you asked for an opinion, I'll give you mine anyway.

Rules exist for a reason. If they are broken, suitable punishment must be dealt. Keeping emotions out of the way is important because otherwise it would be much more difficult to stick to the rules. Do you understand what I mean by that? If rules are broken, then appropriate measures should be taken. If everyone was lenient about the rules just because they felt bad about it or felt sorry for the person on the receiving end of the punishment, then no rules would ever be upheld anywhere.
Keep matters of the head and matters of the heart one step away from each other. If you've abode by the rules then there's nothing to feel bad about, and worrying about it will only cause unnecessary grief.

On the other hand it could be argued that you've betrayed a friend of yours in some way. That thought might cause yourself or other people to look down on you, but personally I find the idea of such a thing laughable. Nobody should be able to tell you whether your decision was right or wrong, but at the same time, there is at least some kind of standard by which "right" and "wrong" can be objectively measured.
While I'm not qualified to say whether your decision was right or not, I can at least tell you that it wasn't wrong.

Take from that what you will.

If you have a position of power and you feel you can't handle it because of personal reasons it's not a bad idea quiting it. It's better than being a biased and still with power. That's just like my opinion.
>>3287
Important apointment? This cold weather is being unpleasant/

>>3288
Yes, an appointment with my psychiatrist. I've (finally) been prescribed some (rather strong) medication, so this is basically sort of a check-up to see how I'm handling it, I guess.
Truth be told, the stuff's horrible. Plus the side-effects are incredibly annoying and inconvenient, but I'll just have to put up with it while my body gets used to the stuff. Now that I'm on medication there's a possibility I'll also be getting some kind of financial support, so that'll be another worry off my mind for the time being.

Still no diagnosis, however. I'm not sure whether I should be worried or disappointed that even after all these months, they still haven't a clue which label to slap on me.

>>3289
Darn, that apointment was important, I hope the snow control itself soon.

>>3290
I suppose it probably seems like that to other people, but to me it's become a part of my weekly routine. Wake up on Thursday, take my medication, read manga for a while, pay my psychiatrist a couple-hour visit then come home and watch anime/read VNs/books/manga before going to sleep, waking up in the early hours of the morning then repeating the same stagnant routine day after day without even the slightest deviation from what has become my norm.

Just a few years ago I'd have considered such a routine to be ridiculous and incredibly unhealthy, but now any thoughts like that are long gone. It's funny just how the human body is able to adapt to any situation and through repeated exposure, convince itself that just about any routine can be considered "ordinary" after it goes on for a long enough period of time.

The human body really is a crazy thing, huh?

>>3291
Yeah, it's pretty amazing how can the human body and mind adapt to different enviroments. Two semesters ago I got used to 4 or less sleep hours per day because of the college, and now I need to sleep a lot more to feel myself rested.

>>3292
Even more amazing than the body though, is the mind. Both are incredibly resilient things able to adapt to just about any given situation, yet both are so unbelievably fragile that the slightest thing could break either of them.

At any rate it turns out my appointment has been cancelled due to the snow. Oh well, guess I'll read a book or something instead then.

>>3291
>I suppose it probably seems like that to other people, but to me it's become a part of my weekly routine. Wake up on Thursday, take my medication, read manga for a while, pay my psychiatrist a couple-hour visit then come home and watch anime/read VNs/books/manga before going to sleep, waking up in the early hours of the morning then repeating the same stagnant routine day after day without even the slightest deviation from what has become my norm.
I wouldn't mind doing that for life.

>>3294
Nor would I as a matter of fact, but my psychiatrist seems determined to get me back out into the world, equip me with a job and steal all that endless yet precious free time away from me.
I suppose if there's one thing I'll miss 'once I'm better', then it's probably how undeniably pleasant these lazy days of mine actually are. Horrifying hallucinations, paranoid delusions, violent mood swings and terrifying nightmares aside, that is.
Given enough time though, I might even be able to grow used to those things. I wouldn't mind living a comfortable life of moderate insanity completely separate from the rest of the world, but my own fragmented mind and the outside world seem determined not to let that outcome happen, it seems.

>>3295
>my psychiatrist seems determined to get me back out into the world, equip me with a job and steal all that endless yet precious free time away from me.
How evil.

>>3296
Indeed. Doubtless an act of true cruelty, I'd say.

>>3297
...Oh, you're still alive.

>>3298
If I didn't know better, I'd almost assume that you were disappointed to know this, for whatever reason.

No, I'm not quite dead yet. Much to my own displeasure and likewise to those around me, I'm sure.

>>3299
Reading all the stuff you've mentioned about yourself in the past, I figured it was a matter of time before you stopped fooling around and offed yourself.

If you don't mind, I would like to know the reason why you're still around.

>>3300
Reason? Well, I don't suppose there is one. Whether there's a good reason for something or not honestly doesn't make a shred of difference to me, so I don't see what difference it makes whether I do or don't have a reason for any of the things I choose to do, or not to do as the case may be.
I think, actually, I've had this conversation with someone once before. It's actually pretty laughable that, with my memory being in the state it's in, I'm still able to remember something like that. Was it last year maybe? Or just a couple weeks ago? Hell if I know, I just remember having a very similar conversation once before.

Why am I not rotting in some hole in the ground as a festering corpse at this exact minute? I wish I knew the answer to that myself.
To answer your question which I've danced around though, it's because I've decided dying would just be a waste of time. Or maybe it's living that's the waste of time, who knows? Who cares. Though I suppose it's less that I've 'chosen not to die' than it is I've 'chosen to put up with living for a while longer'. Forgive my overly-elaborate riddle-like answers, but that's about the only excuse I can come up with that makes even the slightest bit of sense.

You've been very cold, blunt and to-the-point with me, though. I like that. I wish all people were as brutally honest with me about these sorts of things. It's refreshing to be treated as inhuman after being pitied for countless years, you know that? So as empty as it might seem coming from someone like me - thanks. People like you are the reason I've yet to completely lose faith in all of humanity, after all.

>>3302
Living and dying are both wastes of time. But because they're the only things you can do, they can't technically be wastes, either. Neither of them are wastes of time. What's waste of time and what's not is just up to how one values actions. So rather than it being a waste of time and thus you don't want to die, it's a waste of time because you don't want to die.

>>3303
Oh, come on. I know I was being overly philosophical there but that doesn't make even the slightest bit of sense even by my standards.

>>3304
It makes perfect sense.

If living and dying are wastes of time, they aren't wastes of time. Something can only be a waste when it could have been put to a better use. Since dying and living are both the only ways for an at least once living being to use time in the end, one can only be a waste of time if its counterpart is.

But rationally speaking, there is no reason to hold death over life or life over death. When one is held over the other, it becomes subjective. Therefore, if one sees one as a waste and thus prefers the other, it's actually the other way around. Because they prefer one, they see the other as a waste.

>>3302
...Marionettes are stick figures made of wood. You of all people, should know that painting eyes and lips onto a marionette doesn't change the fact that it's still a useless scrap of wood.

And I apologize if I somehow aided in restoring your 'faith in humanity'. I had no intention of doing such an absurd thing. You're pretty much just a moving corpse anyway, so feel free to shatter your own illusion when you please.

>>3306
As he says, after being pitied being disrespected is only refreshing to him.

...Featherine, much?

>>3305
Yeah, like I said, I can't understand a thing you're saying. Whether that's because I've been up for 26 hours straight or whether you're genuinely not making sense is beside the point, however.

>>3306
A walking corpse is indeed what I am, though it's the first time I've been outright told that much. I don't know whether you're simply being blunt with me because I disgust you or whether you've found out how my twisted brain works and have found a way to catch my interest, but if the former is what you set out with in mind then the latter is what you've accomplished by it.

I think I'll be needing at least some sleep soon so I'm afraid this incomparably pleasant conversation can't last for as long as I'd like it to, but if you wouldn't mind giving me your messenger address (assuming you have one, of course), then I know I certainly wouldn't mind continuing the conversation elsewhere at a later time. That's up to you though I guess, so just do whatever you feel like I suppose. I'll leave my own in the email field anyway regardless of what you decide.

>>3308
I believe I am making sense. More sense than most things do, it's a purely inductive argument. Of course, you never get too much of substance from a purely inductive argument. Maybe it seems like it makes no sense because the conclusion isn't really so surprising?

>>3302
You should live because once your life passes, you may not return to this world.

You've been given a life of your own, you should seize the opportunity. You've got plenty of time for death and very little for life.

Hello to all!
>>3287
>>3288
Agree with Anon-kun I prefer being the worst moderator ever, to being a heartless person...

About what John say :
then......I choose being a friend I dont like to be the one that holds the ban hammer.......(sorry for the late reply)

>>3313
A tea party of food .....in this thread.....