>>6557
If you were to NOT be depressed, you would disappear huh?

>>6559
You? A sadist? No way.

>>6560
I think I actually have two personalities. My normal personality is the one I normally always wear. This one hates seeing people suffering or in pain. And this could be considered my true personality.

However when I write, I don't wear that personality, or at least I don't think so. I'm very much a sadist when writing something. I think ways to hurt and torture the characters I'm writing about, and I enjoy writing such scenes. There is even a torture scene in my tea party for my fanep.

>>6560
In a way, that is a very true statement.

>>6559
>>6561
More DID, huh?

>>6556
Well, not really. I don't like being awake when the sun is up however, so I came up with a half-assed schedule that would keep me up at night and asleep during the day. However given my current circumstances, that schedule's been flipped on its head for the third time in the past fortnight.

>>6557
Oh man, I know that feeling. Even worse is not wanting to get out of bed, but not being tired enough to actually go to sleep. You know, I actually spent four hours this morning just laying in bed staring blankly at the wall. Couldn't get back to sleep no matter how hard I tried.
Then I took my medication, and now that I've taken it I feel fantastic and not tired in the slightest, but it's so damn cold that I just want to crawl lazily back into bed - not because I'm tired or depressed, but simply because it's so comfortable and warm. I just can't seem to win no matter what I do, you know?

>>6563
I wouldn't call it DID. More like a shift. I shift and shut off my kind part of my personality, since if I baby the characters it will ruin the story.

>>6561
Ah, writers. Always a little nuts.

>>6562
Don't want ya to be depressed. But I like Patchouli. Well this sucks.

>>6563
Good morning Genji. Well at least I'm just Feenie. No one else.

>>6566
Haha, that is pretty true.

>>6567
"Happy families are all alike. Every unhappy familiy is unhappy in their own way"

-Tolstoy's Anna Karenina

"I will show you a true, witch-like, granting of a wish.
Because you're obviously looking forward to that."

-Witch of Miracles, Bernkastel

>>6564
I believe I can grasp at what you are saying. It is surprising how depression can be stimulating enough to keep one awake.

>>6566
I am sorry to make such contradicting feelings stir inside of you, <Mister> Feenie. Perhaps I should keep my depression to myself...

>>6564
Truly John, yours is a life that only the strongest and most emotionally centered among us could ever hope to endure.~

>>6565
I'd actually say that's just part of being a good writer.

>>6566
Hello Feenie, i'm glad to hear that; it would be wrong for you to be anyone but Feenie, I think. Despite its simplicity, its still quite the important role.

>>6559
Oh come on, I already said I was just fooling around~
Futhermore, while writing you usually need to break the bonds of your concience and morals, otherwise you would be writing the plot for an morning nineties american cartoon.

>>6568
That is true. It is fun writing out the troubles and panic. It is a lot less fun, and more boring writing out everything going smoothly. For writing I am very much a witch, since I hate when things go smoothly~

>>6570
If you're sure..

>>6571
Don't worry, Anon, I know you were just kidding.
____________________________________________

Hmmm.... It is hard writing this part... What would Natsuhi do in this situation... It is hard to imagine. Since I've just broken a huge point of her character in half.

What would she do.. if Krauss was cheating on her, or betraying her. Or at least she thought he was..

>>6572
Usually she would stay faithfull, I believe. She is way too serious to be bothered with her own fears.


Also, is that Bern trollface? Dissapointment.

>>6569
Don't let things boil up inside you. You'll burst someday.

>>6570
Why thank you.

>>6571
You got a problem with Ducktales, amigo?

>>6574
Ducktales was amazing Feenie. But Rosa is trying to write some Umineko violence.

>>6481

T-this and that are entirely different things!

>>6575
LET'S
GET
DANGEROUS

>>6573
I feel that despite how at times she tries to act strong. Natsuhi is actually a very weak person. She tries her best to help Krauss and support him, and when something goes sour she takes it upon herself to try and fix it, if she can, or at least help. However she believes she has a certain place and she can't over step that line. She would do anything for Krauss, I feel. However throwing a curve ball like betrayal and cheating into things, would change her hold on reality greatly. Basically her whole world would shatter. Now the hard part is what would she do because of that. All happiness she had would almost be destroyed by this fact.

Now here is the thing does she decide to be the good little wife even when she thinks he husband doesn't want her. While yes I believe she would do this. I think that before that there would be a small moment of selfish thinking. Of her wanting just a little bit of happiness. Or something like this. Or rather maybe that term isn't what I mean, I guess I mean, more comfort.

>>6575
Ducktales is awesome. Anyone who says otherwise will see, the true power of Musou Rosa.

>>6578
Of course, there's always doubt and selfishness, but I believe something like this would happen.
She would probably try to ignore it at the start, but if given the facts everything points than Krauss doesn't love her she would probably break.

>>6576
hypocrite

>>6574
Rather than things 'boiling up' it feels more like being pressed and dragged down into a pit of despair where I find myself with less and less strength to be pulled up.

>>6581

M-muu.

>>6582

Ganbare, Patchi~

>>6580
I think I already broke poor Natsuhi. She is going mentally insane right now. Tearing papers to sheds, laughing like crazy, looking for things that might not exist, thinking the furniture is laughing at her, thinking pieces of paper are laughing at her and mocking her.

Who wants their wish to be granted.

>>6584
>furniture
>kanonbeingbulliedbynatsuhi.gif

Anyways, the meta story already reached it's happy ending since ep6 ;_;

>>6569
There's actually a very interesting link between depression and sleep-related problems, which has to do with various things such as thought-processes, lowered emotions, lack of motivation, among other things. I actually know a fair bit about that kind of thing, but since I'm sure nobody here's interested in my ramblings I'll just leave it at that for now.

>>6570
I doubt there are many people who could live in my head for a single day without going completely and totally mad.

>>6584
Wow, it's like you've reached right into my head and pulled out a number of things you've found there. I'm not sure if I should be impressed by this fact, or concerned that you consider things like that a form of torture.

>>6585

>>6582
I'd like to offer my hand but you gotta get out yourself.

>>6587
But you know we love your ramblings.
>>6585
Hmm?

>>6587
I meant more the form of torture by taking away their happy lives and throwing them into a twisted mess, with a bleak unhappy ending at the end of the tale.

>>6591
You thought I was talking about something else?

>>6592
To be perfectly honest, I don't even know anymore. I don't even fully remember what I was talking about anymore.

>>6593
Heh, enjoy yourself. Also I believe Meta is waiting for you.

>>6594
I didn't have any time, so far to write the next section... I was never planning on post the game this soon... I wanted to have all the sections done before posting the game... And at the moment I'm having way to much fun writing this scene to try and think of a trick for the 2nd twilight. I don't even have a trick ready for it. I only just got the idea that day, and then didn't have much time and had to scrap together something quick, was sick yesterday so I didn't have time to try and think up a trick.

>>6595
I never had planned to post the game so quickly. I wanted to take my time and plan it out properly. So I could write it properly. With something grand scale prep time is needed...

>>6595
Yes, I can understand that, but will that make Meta don't become impatient~?

>>6561
>>6568
Fufuf, sadism is for the weak and pathetic~

>>6599
>Bel

>>6599
While that's not entirely correct, you're still actually half-right there.

5 points.

>>6598
Yeah, but at the moment, my brain is completely fried and out of tricks.

>>6600
>Fen

>>6601
Enlighten me. You just don't wanna admit you're pathetic/weak~

>>6603
Alright, I'll enlighten you. Also, am I really that sadistic? I mean if anything I'm more masochistic with some sadistic tendencies, but whatever.

You see, normally the "weak and pathetic" would be seen as masochists. While this is sometimes true, a lot of the time these kinds of people actually have repressed urges to inflict pain or suffering on others in order to stimulate themselves and/or make themselves feel better.
Despite sadism and masochism appearing to be complete opposites on the surface, the fact is there's actually a very narrow line separating the two. For this reason somebody who is a masochist might occasionally enjoy dominating others, and someone sadistic will sometimes take pleasure out of being abused or humiliated.
The reason for this is the brain linking the "need to atone for one's mistakes" with the "need to assert dominance or control" over others. A person who enjoys being abused will tend to see it as befitting of them, perhaps to atone for past mistakes or the feeling they need to make something up to someone (or occasionally, themselves). Others derive sexual pleasure or stimulation from it. On the other hand, those who enjoy being in the dominant position often feel a need to assert themselves over others perhaps to make up for the fact that they, themselves, are often forced to play the submissive roll in their day-to-day life. To make themselves feel stronger than they actually are, they might enjoy being in a position of power over other people for self-gratification or sexual pleasure.

In conclusion, someone sadistic may also share many masochistic traits, while someone masochistic may also share many sadistic traits. Masochists may be strong people who want to experience what they consider the "pleasurable" experience of being in a submissive position, while sadists may be apparently weak people (either physically or emotionally) who enjoy experiencing brief moments of dominance or control.

>>6604
So much writing, I don't have all day you know!

I understand, but both are pathetic. The need for masochism and the need for sadism both stem from sad and pathetic needs; atonement for something they perceive they need, or the need to dominate others due to what happened to themselves in the past or a low self-ego. Both are interchangeably sad for different reasons, but I just mentioned Sadism.

Anyway you probably ARE more masochistic, but as you said they are very closely linked, so I wouldn't deny you being a sadist either, nya.

>>6605
If you didn't want to read that much text, then you shouldn't have asked me to "enlighten you" on the subject. You know about my tendency to ramble on about things I'm even the slightest bit interested in.

>>6606
Yeah...it's not your fault. I like hearing what you have to say, I'm just bothered by my upcoming boring-as-all-hell English class.

>>6607
Ah, right. I thought you were just complaining about me typing up so much again, as I tend to do when I start talking about these kinds of things.
Basically I find it ironic because masochism is often perceived as being more "pathetic" what with masochists feeling the desire to be dominated, when in actuality it's the sadists who are more pathetic lusting for a position of superficial power or control over others.

>>6609
New tea party for pure people.

bump.